clarifications

first, i just want to say what sweet and thoughtful friends and family and blog readers i have! thank you for your words/emails of encouragement, offers to keep bennett, shared sentiments, and ideas of things i should "do" with that list :)
{you may just get your wish erin...im picturing a big blaze and a nice glass of vino..AFTER jan. 1st though.  i still might have a breakdown if anything prematurely happened to "the list"...}

second, before anyone at all feels even the teeny tiniest bit sorry for me please know i do all this to myself! i choose to pile lots of things on my plate.  i choose to hand make many/most things that, while they may take longer, are so much more enjoyable to me than the alternative. i work under constant internal chaos of "there are so many things i need to do."  and believe me, its just the way it ALWAYS is over here in natalieland.

i dont want for one second to sound like im complaining or ungrateful or stressed over the small things, bc its far from it!  its a blessing these minor bouts of insomnia due to "BMS" {busy mind syndrome} are the only real nuisances on my plate.  i have Someone much greater than me and my selfish "troubles" carrying any and all "burdens" i may foolishly place on myself.  and believe me, He keeps me in check when i fail to remember that ;)


like i said, when i write things down, it serves as a sort of therapy.  its how i "work out the kinks" on what i think/feel/etc.  i honestly do have 75 legitimate things to do, but most of them are bc i choose to do it the way i do it.  thats me! so please just laugh at my crazy quirks and know that its not even half bad over here.  im just a loon :)

and for a quick laugh:

yesterday bennett and i were at wal-mart {for the first time in a LONG time i might add...ours isnt exactly the safest place on earth} grabbing a few "list" items.  i spend so much time trying to discern his "talk" these days...HE knows what he is saying, he is just waiting for us to catch on.

anyway he started pointing and, with a really high pitched voice, saying "nay-need!! nay-need!!".  he was smiling sheepishly and kicking his feet.  i had no idea what was going on until i looked behind me to where he was pointing and saw this stretched on a canvas:

he was saying "naked"