Bennett is One Month Old! :)

(for some reason my spell check is not working, so pardon the misspellings!)
Well this blog is many days coming, and may end up being a week late by the time I GET the time to write and post it. Oh being a mommy! :)

Where do I begin? Its hard to believe he has been here for a whole month - it has flown by, but then again I cannot imagine how I lived before he was here. He is such an integral part of our lives now, and I am so enjoying this new blessed life. I have never been so happy, so sleepy, so at peace, so concerned, so aware, so in love, so in awe, or so complete.

Since Bennett did the honors in week one, I will attempt to fill his shoes - or socks at this point - and make my own list of things I have learned over the past month.

1. You think you know love, but then you realize you are the fool and the love for a child is like no other love - he is not only part of me, but PART of me. It is difficult during the day to determine where I end and he begins. When he is happy, I am filled with indescribable joy. When he hurts, I am crying with him (especially at 2:30am). When he is sleeping, I sle...wait never mind you know better than that! :)

2. "Just one more picture" and "just one more kiss" are and will henceforth always be lies. There can never be just one more picture, or one more kiss, when it comes to this boy.

3. The sweet tooth does not go away after pregnancy.

4. GOD is good. I already knew of this before Bennett was born, but now I have living breathing proof in front of me every day. There is so much to believe just by looking at a sleeping child...he is so fragile yet so strong and growing so much every day I can almost SEE it.

5. The belly shrinks, but is not the same belly as 9 months before.

6. There is so much I do not know. But then again, there is so much that you just KNOW when you have a baby. How do you learn to correctly hold and handle an infant? How do you know when to feed him? Change him? Hold him? Let him cry? These are things I wondered constantly before Bennett was here, but somehow they all just happened...we just figured it out. I dont really think there is just one "right" answer to parenting, but with Bennett's help I am learning and hopefully am getting closer to our "right."

7. All pacis were not created equal. For the picky Paci connoseaur, Gerber Nuk pacis just don't cut it - well in Bennett's case at least. He prefers Sassy Mam Pacis. Seriously. I do not lie. Speaking of Pacis - someone needs to invent a Paci harness - or something of the sort that keeps paci's in baby's mouth...I mean I understand you can't FORCE the paci in and there is something to be said for a baby being able to spit the paci out if he wants to, but seriously how many times do you have to get up at night just to take one finger and push paci back into baby's mouth to stop the crying? If that is all he wanted why did he spit the thing out? Enter Paci Harness. It will make millions.

8. The human body is amazing...well specifically the female's body - sorry guys, but this is true. What an intricate and PURPOSEFUL design this body is - and what a purpose to possess!!!

9. Mondays = Fridays = Saturdays...no difference.

10. I can live without my heart. Well, techincally I still have a large organ pumping away in my chest, but the essence that is my heart now resides in a 9lb 15oz baby boy (and in the 165lb +/- man who gave me him).

Oh and there is so much more, but we will stick with these ten for now. I really dont think all my 'learning' over the past month can be summarized by ten points, but these are just the highlights.

One month stats:
9lbs 15oz = 50th percentile
20.25" = 50th percentile
head circumference = 50th percentile
What happened to my 98th percentile baby??? WOW how things change!! :)

Loving his bath (and his reflection)