Coming up for air

wow! how life has changed. these past five days have been so crazy and wonderful and scary and blessed and emotional and fulfilling and downright perfection. this tiny baby (who nurses at the hospital think looks huge, but i think still looks teeny tiny) has almost exploded my heart - stephen and i can just look at him forever, and would if we could. but then again stephen does need to work and babys got to eat. speaking of eating, i feel like thats what i have been doing since we have been home! he eats every three hours or so, but i feel like i just finished when its time to start again. the days have gone by so quickly, and i just want them to slow down so i can enjoy all that is this innocent little newborn angel.

he is so good (knock on wood) and has been so easy. not that i have anything to compare it to, but he sleeps for three hours at a time at night, feeds, then goes back to sleep. 3am seems to be his 'time'... the past few nights he has his diaper changed, feeds, then takes a wee bit longer to be put back down. stephen walks him around the room or holds him and then he goes back to sleep closer to 4. but then he sleeps till we wake him up, so all in all its not that bad! this is in sharp contrast to our first night home - gah did that put the fear of God in me. he cried and cried and nothing would appease him. then the power went out at 3:30 and therefore the heat stopped working. his poor little nose was ice cold when i checked on him so i took my beloved Snoogle pillow, made a cocoon in between stephen and me, and placed him in the center. i was so worried about rolling over onto him all night so i didnt exactly sleep soundly, but bennett sure did! we decided that one tiny little swaddled baby does not sleep soundly in a large rectangle cold crib. so we have placed him on his boppy newborn lounger to sleep the past two nights and it has worked like a charm!!!!

my favorite time of day with him is early morning, when he wakes up with stephen and me, we eat breakfast, and then he suns in the window after we dance around my room to the mix of music i made for the hospital delivery (speaking of, erin i need to give you back that bose ipod speaker, but you may have to pry it away - i love it!). tied with this time is when stephen gets home at night and bennett wakes up to daddy's voice and i get to watch my husband (whom i have loved as my friend, boyfriend, fiance, and then husband over the past 9 years) become even more of an amazing man as i now watch him as a daddy. its one of the most wonderful and priceless experiences watching my two boys together. i must constantly tell my post-delivery hormones to remain at bay or i would be a basket case every night.

here are some pics from the past few days: